sometimes, waiting is tiring but all you can do is waiting.
sometimes, facts hurt.
sometimes, you can't get what you want.

however, it is life.
if it isn't like it, it's not life.

It's December

It's already December.

I miss you badly but I know you'll be home anytime soon.

I just can't wait to see you love.

All Over Again

'You make me fall in love again. All over and over again...'

You. Yes, you. I'm falling for you. Come home soon.

With love,
Icha.

What I Want

I just wanna be happy.
I just wanna enjoy every single minute I have.
I don't wanna be sad.
I don't wanna feel this kind of feeling.

I know every cloud has a silver lining.
I know it's gonna be alright.

Random Thought

Suddenly, I realize that it's not important being the first or the second or the third. The most important part is being the last for him. To be the one and only for him. To be the last who will be with him until the very end of time.
I don't wanna care and I don't wanna know about anything else.
As simple as that.
I just wanna be happy and enjoy every little thing I do. That's all.

The Beginning

It's just the beginning of the story, our story. There's a long way to go and I know that won't be easy. I know I shouldn't be afraid because I know that you'll be there. Yes, you. You whom I never thought would come to my life this fast. Too many things in my head but still I have to be grateful for everything I have. I'm happy. Alhamdulillah.

Dear, you.
Thank you for bringing my life back! Being with you is one of the best moments in my life. I'm hoping this happy feeling will last longer, will be forever be mine.
Our journey has been begun. I'm never stop praying for us, you and me. For today and for our future. God bless us. God bless love.

xoxo,
Icha.

Life can be so surprising

Sembilan belas. Time flies so fast! Banyak hal yang datang tak terduga di hidup gue tahun ini. Hal-hal yang datang tak terduga itu bikin gue makin ngerasa Tuhan itu baik baik baiiiiiik banget sama gue :') Walaupun gak semua hal berjalan mulus dan sesuai dengan apa yang gue inginin.

Saking banyaknya cerita, gue gak tau mesti mulai dari mana.
Dari kuliah? Semester empatnya akhirnya selesai juga dan Alhamdulillah IPnya gak turun bebas meskipun gak naik-naik juga. Lanjut semester pendek yang bikin gue sibuk luar biasa tapi seneng karena bisa belajar banyak dari dosen yang bukan hanya berbagi ilmu tentang sastra tapi juga tentang dunia. Beberapa hari lagi udah waktunya ngisi IRS buat semester lima yang bikin gue sadar bahwa gue tambah tua. Semester lima, waktu-waktunya jenuh kuliah kata senior gue. Semoga aja gak bikin gue tambah males-malesan dan semoga gak menghalangi keinginan gue buat cepet lulus kuliah. Tambah sadar bahwa gue harus makin serius kuliah. Tambah sadar bahwa nanti lulus kuliah bukan kayak lulus SMA. Tambah sayang banget sama temen-temen kuliah yang kl lagi liburan gini bikin kangen. Intinya, kuliah gue dari semester satu menuju lima ini menyenangkan meskipun gue tahu semester-semester depan gak akan semenyenangkan semester-semester kemaren. Cukup dengan kuliah.

Hidup gue? Hidup gue... It's funny when I realize that life can be so surprising and pretty unpredictable. Hmm sekitar dua bulan yang lalu, di depan Ka'bah, gue berdoa+curhat panjang lebar sama Allah dan gak nyangka bahwa Allah akan menjawab doa gue satu-satu secepat ini. Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah juga bahwa doa gue yang satu itu rasa-rasanya terjawab lebih cepat dari apa yang gue harapkan. Tentang hidup yang semakin terasa maknanya, tentang diri gue yang semakin sadar dengan hidupnya, dan tentang hati gue yang mulai hidup lagi #eaaaaaaaaa

I'm so happy having this kind of feeling. Seneng banget bisa ngerasa kayak gini. I've never been this way before and surprisingly it feels lovely. I'm not saying that I've never fallen before. It's simply different. I know it's just too early to dream about future. It hasn't even been started yet. Yet, I know it's something and it'll grow become something. Pamali katanya kl udah ribut-ribut duluan. Maybe, I'll keep this story until the day I feel I have to share this happy feeling with others. Until the day when I know that I've choosen the right choice. I know it's not only a chance to start brand new days but also it is a choice that has to be choosen. From God, it comes. I know that they, family&friends, have told me right. They say that one thing that I must do right now is never stop praying and enjoying every second I have. Expect less. Don't let yourself fall too deep; don't let yourself fly too high.

Bismillah. Wish me luck for everything! For the life I have, for the love I feel.

xoxo,
icha.

bisa gak bisa

Kadang-kadang memang gue susah buat percaya sama diri gue sendiri bahwa gue bisa. Seringnya gue gak percaya bahwa gue bisa dan udah nyerah duluan. Kadang belum apa-apa gue udah berimajinasi yang nggak-nggak dan bikin gue sendiri takut padahal sebenernya kalo udah dijalanin mah gue bisa. yap, gue bisa! bahkan gak jarang gue dapet apa yang gak gue bayangin sebelumnya. sampe sekarang gue masih sering ngerasa lebih susah ngebangkitin kepercayaan diri gue sendiri bahwa sebenernya gue bisa dibanding tingkat kesulitan ngerjain tugasnya. Rasa-rasanya kepercayaan diri gue itu sangat dipengaruhi oleh kata 'gak bisa' yang kadang keluar gitu aja dari mulut gue. Kata 'gak bisa' ini sama dengan kata 'males' yang efeknya sangat besar. Sekali ngomong gitu kayaknya kepercayaan diri gue terhadap kemampuan gue sendiri bisa ilang gitu aja sama dengan kata 'males' yang kalo gue ucapin bener-bener bisa bikin males beneran. Jadi, selama semester empat ini gue berusaha buat menghindari si 'gak bisa' dan si 'males'. Wish me luck!

Strange and Beautiful by Aqualung

I've been watching your world from afar,
I've been trying to be where you are,
And I've been secretly falling apart, unseen.
To me, you're strange and you're beautiful,
You'd be so perfect with me but you just can't see,
You turn every head but you don't see me.

I'll put a spell on you,
You'll fall asleep and I'll put a spell on you.
And when I wake you,
I'll be the first thing you see, lyric's top
And you'll realise that you love me.

Sometimes, the last thing you want comes in first,
Sometimes, the first thing you want never comes,
And I know, the waiting is all you can do,
Sometimes

I'll put a spell on you,
You'll fall asleep,
I'll put a spell on you,
And when I wake you,
I'll be the first thing you see,
And you'll realise that you love me.

I'll put a spell on you,
You'll fall asleep 'cos I'll put a spell on you,
And when I wake you,
I'll be the first thing you see,
And you'll realise that you love me, yeah

2011

It's been a century since the last time I wrote on this blog. Many things in my life have changed and they are still changing.
I'm not a 17-year-old girl anymore; I'm an 18-year-old sophomore student. I'm waiting for my prince to come; I'm single. Minus Glasses were my past; I did LASIK last month!
I've started to understand many things about life. I'm still trying to make my dreams come true and to make my life better. I'm still waiting for miracles and trying to be a nicer and better lady.
And so on and so on and so on.
I really wanna share a bunch of stories but I'm too tired to type anything tonight.
I will be telling you those interesting amazing colorful stories later on.

yours,
Icha.